Magick Maker 17

so...It's been about a million years since I posted anything in here. I told you all that I was horrible at keeping a journal. But, I've been letting this fester, and I feel like I really need to get it off my chest. So, I'm gonna post about it here.

I'm not really looking for sympathy, and I'm not really trying to whine about it, I'm just trying to say that this has annoyed me. I'm also not trying to make anyone feel bad about what they may or may not have done.

On the hall, we have a lot of girls who have birthdays near the beginning of the year. There are several in February: Anne, Corinne, Maddie, Keli, and Joselyn. Everyone made note of these days, and then we had a big February Birthday Party at the end of the month.

In April, we have Loli on the 7th, Doddy on the 14th, and me on the 17th. And then in May, we have Lana on the 5th.
The hall threw a huge party for Loli, and then another one for Doddy. On the eve of Lana's birthday, we all went into her room at midnight and watched her open presents, and gave her a cake-type thing.
My birthday went almost completely unobserved. I got a few presents, and Kat and Suzu took me out to dinner, but most of the hall seemed to forget about it. I know this was partially my fault because I was working on Sunday, but still.


On another note, people (namely Loli) keep giving Lana food-type things for the summer, saying things like, 'oh, she's going to be living on campus this summer, I don't want her to go hungry.' and 'I want her to have things to eat.'
I too am going to be living on campus this summer, with no car and little access to anything other than Kroger for my meal options. Yet, no one has offered me so much as a package of ramen. (That's not strictly true, Jennifer Waterhouse and Doddy both told me that I was welcome to come eat dinner at their house sometimes, but I'm still feeling a little bit forgotten and abandoned.)

I'm 20 years old, about to be a Junior in college, and I should be self-sufficient and able to stand on my own. But I'm feeling a little bit like I need someone to lean on. Maybe it's just end-of-the-year blues. Maybe it's the fact that in a couple of months Kat will be going away to grad school, and for the first time in our lives, we'll be living in different states, in different time zones. I don't know, I just kind of wish I didn't feel so ignored and alone.

I have recently (and by recently, I mean just today...) discovered a great appreciation for surrealist jokes. So I thought I'd share a few:

How many surrealists does it take to change a light bulb?
Two, one to hold the giraffe and another to fill the wheel barrow with brightly coloured machine tools.

How many surrealists does it take to change a light bulb?
Three. One to hold the giraffe, and one to throw brightly coloured power tools into the bathtub.

What is the similarity between a monkey and a bicycle?
The both have wheels except for the monkey.

What is the difference between a duck?
The one eye is blue and the other eye is also green.

What is the difference between a duck?
One of its legs is both the same.

Why did the bed cross the road?
Because he wanted to send e-mail from space and there were no telephone poles.

There are two penguins on an ice floe, drifting north into warmer waters. These penguins are very fond of each other, but they don’t speak English very well. Suddenly, with a terrific crack, the ice floe splits in half, right between the penguins. As they begin drifting apart, one penguin sadly waves a flipper and calls out, “Chocolate milk!”

What do you get when you cross a surrealist with a mafia don?
An offer you can't understand

And the one which started the madness:
Why did the chicken cross the road?
Staple Gun!

I got the first season of The Muppets on DVD for Yule! It made me ecstatic!!! I love the Muppets! Especially the Swedish Chef!

I also got a PRINTER!!! Which makes me VERY happy. No more getting up early to trek over to Dana to print out assignments...only to find out that one or both the printers aren't working.

I'm also planning to get a DS... and Anyar is trying to get a Wii, which she will be bringing back with her if she procures one. Wish her luck!

Now, it is almost 3:30am, and I am going to sleep. Goodnight all.

Your Boy Side
[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hot Wheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] Wear boxers.

Total = 12

Your Girl Side
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[ ] You love to shop.
[ ] You wear eyeliner.(0n occasion, like once every couple months...)
[ ] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[ ] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[x] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.(I took a year of ballet, but I was really bad at it, and never went back, so I don't think that counts...)
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[ ] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Total: 6

Wow, my male side is bigger than my female side...thats a little surprising, but I suppose not, given the nature of the questions for the girl side. I mean, honestly, cheerleading as a sport?

but I need my Sssargons!!!

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In November I gave tammypierce a Dutch Oven (-10 points). Last Wednesday I signed my organ donor card (28 points). In August I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). In April I punched nimori in the arm (-10 points). Last Monday I put money in sssargon's expired parking meter (14 points). Overall, I've been nice (348 points). For Christmas I deserve a new dolly! Sincerely, magickmaker17

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And, just because the first bit of this one was rather amusing:

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In October I turned ashita_wa_ok in for running naked in the mall (3 points). Last week I got in line at the supermarket at the same time as someone else and I didn't yield (-8 points). Last Sunday I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). In January I pulled tsuki_no_suzu's hair (-5 points). In June drgnofdarkness and I robbed a bank (-50 points). Overall, I've been nice (266 points). For Christmas I deserve a Sony Playstation 3! Sincerely, magickmaker17

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what I find most amusing about this exercise is that sometimes buying porn for someone else gives you 10 points, and sometimes its -10 points...

1. Chem 105 - BASIC Chemistry - INTRO-LEVEL Chemistry requires CALCULUS!
- I've never taken Calculus. In high school, I passed Trig with a 'C,' and barely passed Pre-Calculus 2. I also struggled through every minute of it. Pre-Calc 2 brought me to tears several times.
- I've basically given up on Chemistry. At this point, I'm just hoping to pass.

2. When it rains, it pours.
- Thanksgiving break falls right before the end of the semester. All the professors make tests, papers, and projects due the two weeks before Thanksgiving break, because there isn't time afterward. (okay, this I was warned about...)

3. Being a senator for a dying club, whose other members are all really busy, makes you become President, VP, Secretary, and Senator, all-in-one.
- I'm in charge of getting the club a new email account, because ours somehow got deleted
- I've got to get our page on the SGA website up to date.
- I need to make sure they have a copy of our constitution. I don't even know if we have a constitution.
- I had to sit the table at the Halloween Carnival all by myself. (Which I don't blame anyone for, since the car accident had just happened.)
- I have to give the semester report, aka I have to get up in front of senate and tell them all we've done NOTHING!

I am a first-semester, first-year student. I'm still trying to adjust to the work load of college. I have TWO work study jobs. I'm the Secretary of Foundation 42. I understand that the other members of the Field Hockey team have their own things going on. To name a few, sssargon is a senior, and captain of the hall. goldcelestial is president of WA2. I don't blame everyone for being busy, but I DO NOT have the ability, the time, or the desire to run a club all by myself.

I'm pretty much ready to just shut down. I can tell its going to happen. And this is what will happen. I will stop doing all homework, all reading assignments. I will ignore the fact that they exist. I will spend my free time reading for pleasure and surfing the internet. My migraine will come back, and persist. I will stop caring about everything, and I'll start being mean to my friends.

So, in case you couldn't tell, I'm feeling really stressed out. I'm pretty much stretched to my limits. If I snap at you, I probably don't mean it, and I'm sorry.

Things that I need to do before Neko:

Tuesday:
Advising appointment with Moeckel
Psych class
Contact Aunt Sandy about paper for Water
go to goodwill?
Senate
Work(Library)
LAUNDRY!!!
Pack for Neko
Chem Lab report & homework

Wednesday:
Chemistry
Work(Theatre)
Pack Suzu's car
Write rough draft of paper for Water(due Tuesday)

Thursday:
Water class
do all my homework for the weekend
Psych class
leave for Neko

wow, not as bad as I thought it would be, but I'm sure there's something I'm leaving off this list...maybe I'll skip psych today, if I can find someone to take me to goodwill...

ranting below...feel free to just skip to the next text break...

As if it weren't bad enough, this past week was Hell Week, or production week of our fall drama production. Because of this, my stress level has been through the roof. I had a migraine that started on Tuesday evening, and pretty much followed me through Sunday.
Add to that my friends getting in a car accident Saturday evening, and my stress level doesn't exactly go down. (They're all fine, nothing worse than a mild concussion and stitches required.)
On top of that, my roommate's mother came for Family Weekend, and is staying in our room...which would be okay, except for the fact that I think she snores just about as loud as my mother does.
I think I managed to drift off, in that half-asleep state, for no more than an hour...
I know I'm going to get yelled at, that many of you would have let me sleep in your room instead, but I didn't really want to bother, and really didn't want to impose. Besides, I didn't really begin to give up sleeping until 2am, and didn't give up entirely until about a half hour ago, putting me at about 5:30am...I didn't want to risk someone else who needed sleep being woken up on account of me.
And, truth be told, I didn't want to offend my roommate's mother by going 'oh, I'll just go elsewhere tonight so I can actually get some sleep!' I thought it would be okay, and once I got tired enough, I would be able to just drift off.
So, here I sit, in the computer room in the dorms. Its freezing cold in here. So I am both exhausted and COLD!!! Not a good combination.
So here I am, looking into the week ahead, at classes galore, followed by NekoCon next weekend. If I didn't have to save my last Chemistry absence for this friday, for the con, I would totally not be going tomorrow.

Speaking of the Con, I need to make a goodwill run before this weekend, preferably before wednesday, so I have it for Samhain. Anyone willing to take me?

which is good, and at the same time bad.
It is good because it means that I don't have classes today, so I can catch up on homework and sleep.

It is bad because I stayed up for the Tinker scare at 1am, so didn't get to bed until almost two, and then got woken up at 6am. Also, I just gave blood last night, and when I went to get donuts this morning, I kept having dizzy spells. I also have that bone-weary tired feeling that I always get after giving blood, that all-encompassing lethargy, where all I want to do is sleep. So, in light of current circumstances, I decided it was best if I didn't climb a friggin' MOUNTAIN today. I'm sure you all understand.

So, I went and got donuts with the rest of Otaku, and then I came back to my room to take a shower and go back to sleep. Unfortunately for me, Courtney had knee surgery this summer, so there will be no mountain climbing for her either. She likes to sleep with music on, which is rarely a problem, because she has headphones and it doesn't bother me too much. But on some occasions, she turns it up pretty loud, and I cannot sleep with music that I know that has a vocal part playing in the background, because I sing along in my head, and can't sleep. Of course, this morning just had to be one of those days where she plays her music loudly. so here I sit, completely exhausted, but unable to sleep because of her music.

I can't wait until J-Term when I can move into my single on Otaku. And to top it all off, my hair STILL smells like GRAPE, even after I've shampooed it twice since it was dyed...

I'm off to try and sleep again....

I took that quiz thingie...
Your walk is:
Zombie-like


Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

but I felt that it was necessary for me to post now, since anyone who I really want to see it will be able to here, I think, and I don't feel like getting screamed at while trying to say it to people in person.
I really, really, really, really love ALL the Otaku! But I'm a little annoyed by all the drama that is taking place on the hall right now. We're in college ladies, and we should be able to get past this without having screaming matches. Without people breaking down into tears, and without long periods of silence and stony looks.
I feel like there's this shroud throughout your entire hallway, and its making me want to stay away from the hall. That really makes me sad, because the hall is like my second home and I love spending time down there. I feel so loved and accepted on the hall, but lately its just been this cloud of hatred and depression, and I can't handle that right now, because I'm already stressed out about college in general, the work load, and finances, and friends, etc.
Is there anything that can be done to fix things? I don't know if there is, but can we all try to act a little more mature? Please? I hate it when I feel like I'm being banished from a place where I felt welcomed in the past.
I almost feel like I did when my father told me and Kat that he didn't love us and never wanted to see us again. Like I've been punched in the gut. I hate that feeling. I don't know really what's going on, and I don't really think I want to know everything that's happening, I don't even want to know what I do know.
Please, for the sake of everyone's sanity, can we PLEASE try to be civil to one another? Can we try not to get upset when someone mentions our name in a conversation in another room? Can we also try to be rational, and discuss this without shouting?

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

ha!! I have beaten noagirl's score!!!

I would just like to say that neighbors are the most annoying things on the planet.
Our neighbors are barbecuing out, which is fine, but then they decide that it is okay for them to sit on the bench we have in our backyard, and drink beer on it.
Even that wasn't a big problem, but then, I heard them throw one of the empty beer bottles into our trash can. The trash men will not pick up the trash unless it is in a bag, and I admit, I got angry. I stormed out there and told them to take it out. The woman refused and got all offended, and started yelling, and proceeded to accuse me of hating her because she was black, and threw her beer bottle into our trash can as well.
Now, 15 minutes later, she is still out in the back yard, still SITTING ON OUR BENCH, and yelling.
Excuse my language, but what the FUCK is wrong with people today, that they think it is okay to use other people's property, not only without permission, but people they don't know, and who they will have to continue living next to.

I'm stuck in New York right now, we're stuck sitting in a hotel all day, because of the snow. its soooooo boring, but Cunningham is going to try to go get us some games and find food places that are close so we can get stuff to eat. It's gonna be a fun day... we shall see how this turns out, we might have to stay an extra night.

I can't believe it!!! I am on LJ from my laptop, I don't know how that happened, but I'm not complainingQQ

okay, you all can stop cheering now....seriously....STOP!!!

now, on to the post....I really should post more often....but what would be the fun in that?

I have started an lj for my trip to Australia this summer, so I can get high school credit for it, and it can be viewed here if you really want to see it. (I won't hold it against you if you don't...)

Yeah, I'm sure I had something else to say, but now I can't remember what it was, so I shall leave you with this parting note:


SOL TESTS SUCK!!!

But hey, who cares, they're funny right?......aren't they?......>.<

Sara: Nana, stop eating the paper.
Scuba Steve: Didn't you just come from lunch?

Sara: people are just walking out
Liz Beth/Jason: especially the teacher

Liz Beth/Jason: how do you subtract...?
Me: Did I just hear 'how do you subtract'?
Sara: yeah
Liz Beth/Jason: no, how do you subtract binomials?
Sara: ....sure...

subject quote from me, said in Algebra 2 a couple days ago.
Mr. Johnson was having a little trouble with numbers that day, later on he went from ex. 7 to ex. 4

Another funny quote from Algebra:

Mylindra: Come over here Mr. Johnson.
Mr. Johnson: I don't want to go over there, it smells bad.

Yeah, so we took a test on tuesday in Chemistry and I thought I did really badly because I didn't know any of the information on it.
But, appearently, I did pretty well, at least, that's what Kaplan said to Kitty.
He said that if I keep getting test scores like that, I'll be fine, but it would be nice if I would try to do some of my homework...oops...heh...

( On Homework: )

On another note, I am sick....I think it's allergies, but it might be turning into a cold. 

I'm tired and I really want to just go home, but I can't afford to miss any more of my blue day classes. it really sucks. Mommy....>.<